Thankful

This year I have many things to be thankful for:

My new(ish) job. I know it's not the right fit for me, but after being unemployed for the longest unwanted period of my life, I am thankful to have one in this economy. I also have faith that the right gig is out there, just waiting for me to find it.

My kids. They may drive me batty and act like heathens, but they are mine. For the most part, they are healthy and happy.

My marriage. Last year at this point we were in a very bad place, but we've seemed to make a turn around. I've very thankful for a husband who didn't give up on me when he probably should have.

My family who helps me out even though none of them live near me.

Health insurance. Who isn't thankful for that?

This video (Total blackmail footage starring L):

Boots. Every girl needs a pair of boots. Me? I could use a few more pairs as I am wearing my others out.

To all who might read my blog, Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours.

Sore losers should be ashamed of themselves

I listen to ESPN Radio probably more than I should. I'm a sports geek like that. Today I was listening to Colin Cowherd. I'm not really a big fan of his, especially after his moronic statements about former UK star/current Wizards player John Wall, but this story he told got my attention.

This story about an 8 year old and his dad going to a football game, the boy's first, and the treatment he received after leaving the stadium.

See this boy was a fan of the winning team, which happened to be the visitor that day. Because this boy and his dad were fans of the winning team, the visitor, they were treated like crap. Obscenities were yelled, food was thrown and a little boy was hurt.

At his very first NFL game.

Those fans that did those horrible things are an embarrassment to fans everywhere. That is not the kind of person I want to be compared to as a sports fan. I think of myself as pretty passionate. After all, I am a UK fan, we aren't used to losing. I'm not naive in thinking that UK fans are sweet in a loss. I'm sure there are some that drink too much and can become complete a-holes. But causing injury to a little boy is a whole separate class of lowlife.

No one likes a sore loser. Those fans that chose to tackle a little boy? Sorest losers of them all. Be ashamed, Cleveland. Be very ashamed.

Jumping on the bandwagon a bit late....

... but here goes.

30 days of truth

I don't know if I can get through it all, but I'm willing to try.

So brace yourselves. Tomorrow it begins.

Long time, no blog

Hi there!

Did you miss me?


I know, I know. I've been a bad blogger. It's been months. In that time I started my job, L started Kindergarten, K potty-trained, and so much more.

I've missed it. Even though I have no idea how many people actually read it, I've missed it. I've gone to blog several times over the last few months and get distracted or start reading other people's blogs instead of writing for my own.

That changes today. Blogging is something I do for me, not for anyone else. I need to blog, to say what I need to say when I need to say it, to get those things off my chest. If someone connects with the words I write here, that's like a big bonus.

Here's to a renewed blogging future.

The End of a Long Journey

As of Tuesday, I will no longer be a SAHM.

As of Tuesday, I will send my daughter back to the daycare she once attended.

As of Tuesday, I will no longer spend my days searching.

As of Tuesday, I will be working once again!

My SAHM time

About a month ago we made the decision that we couldn't justify keeping K in daycare any longer. So we gave our two week notice at daycare and I became a stay at home mommy.

Let me just say that this isn't my first go at being a stay at home mom. When L was younger than K is now, I tried it for about six months. I think I made us both horribly miserable. As much as I loved my son, I quickly figured out that my kid was happier and I was happier when I worked. Along with this revelation came waves of guilt. I mean, come on, what kind of mother am I that I would rather put my kiddo in daycare, in the care of strangers, than spend the days at home with him looking into his big brown eyes? This horrible mommy, that's who.

This time, with K, has been much different. I think we've gotten into a pretty good routine. She's loves to play and help me around the house. I think I've finally gotten her to watch a 30 min kids show. I still haven't found that good balance between getting housework done and spending time with her, but it's getting better. She loves to get out and shop and can't wait to get L from school every day. We spend our days with princesses, flash cards, and food. The child snacks all day long, but that's a post for another day.

I still have those moments when I can't wait to get back to work everyday. I don't think those will ever go away. I do know that when I return to work this time, it's going to be much, much harder. I'm getting sad just thinking about it.

Ultimate Blog Party 2010

It's a party and YOU are invited!

It's funny because as I write this I am also planning a joint birthday party for my two kiddos. See we were in Walt Disney World for my oldest's birthday (he turned the big 5) but family keep asking when or what we are going to do for his birthday. Only they asked like 3 days before we left for Disney. I wasn't planning on a party for L but all these people make made me feel guilty. Since I'm unemployed still, and we were going to have a party for my almost 2 year old, we decided to throw a joint party. So now I'm trying to figure out when to have it and where. BBD rarely has a weekend off, so this complicated things. Living in the Bluegrass State, we have to work around the Kentucky Derby and the festival preceding it. The plan was to have the joint party a little before K turns two, but that might not happen. So I continue to plan and hopefully by tomorrow we will make some decisions. In the meantime, let's party here!

So, the obiligitory introductions...

I am Big Blue Momma.

I am currently unemployed and being a stay at home mom in the meantime.

I love sports, especially college basketball, college football and the NFL. We are also hockey watchers.

I have been married to Big Blue Daddy for 9 years. He works crazy hours and sometimes I feel like a single parent because of it.

I have two children:

Logan (L), 5, who loves video games probably too much. Some day I'll share his story.

Kaelin (K), 22 months, who is into everything and is a princess in every way.

I blog about unemployment, sports, my kids, my struggles with unemployment and my kids. I hope that soon I won't have to blog about my unemployment, because I'm tired of it.

Might I invite you to have some snacks? Cupcake? Party Favor?

Let the party begin!

So the party favors I want include:

• A custom blog design from Mary Hess Designs. My blog needs help badly and I would love a new look for it!
• Be My Guest Certificate ($250 value) good at any Hilton Garden Inn. I would love a couple of nights to get away somewhere fun this summer with the kiddos and I don't know if that will happen if I don't get a job soon.
• $150 gift certificate to A Rocking Horse to Love.

I would also love 71, 16, 33, 83, 20, 50, 35, 26 and anything that a 5 year old boy and an almost 2 year old girl would love!